This hour…
This day…
I am guided by divine Wisdom
I am healed by divine Love
I am blessed by divine Joy
I walk in Gods’ Grace
This moment and every moment of my life
And So It Is!
-Elizabeth Lamb
This hour…
This day…
I am guided by divine Wisdom
I am healed by divine Love
I am blessed by divine Joy
I walk in Gods’ Grace
This moment and every moment of my life
And So It Is!
-Elizabeth Lamb
I have abundant health
I want to stay in vibration with Source
I can ask for and receive anything I desire
I love life in all its seasons
I speak and the universe listens
I see Source working
I know I am on the right path
Boy, come over here
I need you near
Lean in close
Kiss my nose
Close your eyes
And let time fly
A sigh upon my neck
Sends me into orbit
The rumble from your chest
Against my breast
Is like honey to my soul
Making me want go where you go
Boy, take me with you
We’ve paid our dues
It’s gonna be alright
Just hold me tight
Kiss me deep
And I’m yours to keep
So turn up the music
Get right down to it
Glide right on in
I want to feel you within
Hey boy, come here
You can never be too near
He smiles and I can’t keep from smiling back
Eyes twinkling, he pulls me in to remove the slack
Blue eyes to green we speak without words
He looks away and my cheeks burn
In no hurry, we sway with abandon
And I feel myself slowly come undone
Yeah, I slowly come undone
He says my name and I catch my breath
Who knew a word could have that depth
Fingers glide across gold, silken skin
At once I feel a forgotten stirring within
I breathe in the scent of his soap, his shampoo
And I feel that time has become new
Yeah, time has become new
The leaves are falling and so are we
I believe it’s simply meant to be
We have so much to learn in the afterglow
But I have a feeling it will be a straight road
He pulls me in to remove the slack
He smiles and I can’t keep from smiling back
Yeah, he smiles and I smile back
Crawl quietly back into bed
Pull the covers over my head
Mothers’ words have cut again
Twisted reasoning without end
Must. Remain. Here. for now
As soon as possible, take a bow
Breathe to release the energy
Don’t let this become my destiny
Weave and mend the web of life
Summon courage to end strife
I’m empty inside.
The bleak darkness of depression has become my steady companion again.
I have tried to shake it.
I have:
taken a walk
sat in the sunshine
listened to the birds singing
looked at beautiful pictures
read lovely posts
painted
cried
slammed my fists into a pillow
slept
stayed awake
been quiet
turned up the radio…
Nothing can help me when this depression grabs hold.
I will ride it out like I have dozens of other times, I’m sure.
I’m just so damn tired.
So tired.
He introduces me to grace and mercy
Reflections of a love unpracticed by me
Compassion and unconditional love
For one unknown to dance above
She has forever dealt with the devil
So for her daughter she won’t come level
Won’t admit to her numerous failings
Regardless of those fleeting feelings
He takes her old, frail hand
Tries to lead her to another land
The daughter shakes her head in disbelief
Wanting so much for her own release
She has waited so very long
Has yet to sing her own song
She fights the surge of betrayal
While he quietly remains loyal
They wish for the same dream
A quiet life with sweet cream
Until the old woman passes on and away
She holds their beautiful lives in her sway
He remains certain of happy dreams
Working as the anchor for their team
She provides the winding direction
Her heart no longer sure of the projection
The path has been uncertain of late
But he feels certain of good fate
He introduces me to grace and mercy
Reflections of a love unpracticed by me
He feels their hearts inside his own
He points the way to a better home
The blush of a Robins’ breast,
The subtle violet hues of a sunset,
These are the heaviest things on my mind today.
Sweet love songs on the radio,
Staying in pjs with nowhere to go,
I’m living in heaven, if only for one day.
Blue and yellow make green,
Thoughts focused on a scene,
Painting releases a me I never knew.
Light brush stokes on watery paper,
Can only hint at what’s behind the maker,
I’ll leave it to you to decide what it means.
Burnt umber for a bark with grey undertones,
Pretending I’m sitting under the tree alone,
Wondering what the purple flowers smell like.
My heart is filled and my soul is singing,
Now I’m aloft with the birds who are winging,
My eyes are keen for a distant shore.
The blush of a Robins’ breast,
The subtle violet hues of a sunset,
These are the heaviest things on my mind today.
Come, let’s join hearts and hands
Sail together to peaceful lands
You are not you, I am not me
We are actually one body
Souls joined in the Divine
Meeting again across all time
Contracts for these lives, we agreed
To this particular experience, you see
A heavy load we now carry
Past lives we played and tarried
Maybe we were the first to say
“After me, to hell with your decay”
Now we are here to balance the scales
The breath of our cries will lift the sails
We will absolutely make it past Pluto
Thanks to a sun-kissed type of Leo
A peaceful warrior unknown to most
Can heal us all as the ultimate host
So come, let’s celebrate
We are learning to bend and break
Old cycles needed correction
We can sail far on our shared connection
Real love, real hope, however life bites
We can be healed within each night
Be birthed new in moon glow
Given the energy we need to go
Through the next lesson we have to learn
Like how to have power and not burn
Learning to use this darkness for good
We can heal the collective sisterhood
Our contracts have meaning after all
Without them we would continue to fall
Karma will forever have Her way
So come, let’s cry together and sail away
“The wound is the place where the Light enters you.” ― Rumi
~winged woman, 20 May 15
See that tiny ant stuck in that puddle of pop
Imagine climbing and struggling but never reaching the top
Then you really might know what it’s like
To have thoughts that leave you feeling nothing but blight
~
See the light hiding behind dark clouds with rain to come
Imagine moments with your son being the only bright moments to be won
Then you might really know what it’s like
To live under the power of depression in a life with little light
~
See that young goose eating her own eggs for food
Imagine maternal love twisted against you, sexual paternal love is nothing new
Then you might know what it’s really like
To know what’s wrong and still be confused about what’s right
~
See that bee bouncing off the window screen
Imagine having wings without being able to free your being
Really then you might know what it’s like
To feel trapped while your abuser lives a carefree life
winged woman, 18 May 15
I bet on love,
Love let me down,
I love on anyway.
Sweet love come here
Lovingly sweep the crumbs
Of that love lost.
Fill my breast, Love!
Feed my soul, Love!
Love me despite me,
Let love rule again.
Thank you to Leon of Solitary Thinkers for the nomination. The rules are simple:
Write 10 lines
Use the word “love” in each line
Use only 4 words per line
Title it “Love in Ten Lines”
Nominate 10 other Bloggers (I’m choosing not to do this, but please take the challenge if you are reading this!}
Alone I sit within walls of my own making
Wondering where all the people are at.
For the first time I can truly see
And the possibilities are unnerving.
My future involves others, and the Other
Lots of different others, I feel.
Yet I sit alone with the new sights and emotions
Wondering just what to make of it all.
Knowing I am being drenched in knowledge
But having no patience for the learning curve.
Not wanting to wait for the addition of understanding
To marry everything as one.
Destiny is showing her face
Beckoning me onto a path full of uncertainties.
“Look there,” Karma says and
I see what she means, however…
But I will be obedient this time
And go where they lead me.
Even though I am frightened and alone,
I am even more afraid of not following, not learning
The lessons I must learn
Because I don’t want to find myself here again.
Will this be the time old karma is fixed?
Will this be the time I ascend?
The finish feels so close at times, but
Is it bad karma yet again making me want to die?
Wanting to follow my brother down suicides’ path
Is stronger and easier than following destiny.
Especially when the hard edges of life
Press on my heart so greedily.
So alone I sit within walls of my own making
Pondering what I have left to teach and
More importantly, how hard the next lesson will be to learn.
~winged woman, 27 Mar 15
Would you come if I sent for you
Leave all behind and start new
Break ties with friends and family
Move to the states and travel with me
Be free roaming spirits, hearts a-lift
We three sharing our gifts
Blessing each other and strangers too
Becoming one with natures’ truth
Traveling this country in an RV
Wondering at Her majestic beauty
Teaching and learning everywhere we go
Be it dry deserts or mountains with snow
Bathing in Her rivers, singing in Her woods
Sighing at the taste of star-speckled foods
Laughing and crying at remembered old lives
Helping to erase each others’ hard lines
Finding new life and fresh lungs full of air
Renewing our souls without any cares
Remaking our joined worlds into something
Finding escape from the meaningless nothing
Stop the ruin and the struggles
Be like children that need nightly snuggles
Share in love and life without strife
Wonder at it all and believe in the night
Would you leave all behind and start new
Would you come if I sent for you
~winged woman, 23 March 15
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Yes, I hear you speaking thru the veil, but can not make out your words. Your time in this realm, the life you had, is gone. It’s time for you to move along.
Nyero or xznouf l ouoeu aou q znm. Ndn! Uouctnej!!
No, you can not stay with me. You need to begin again. Please take with you the most important lesson for next time: things were NOT done TO you, you created them yourself. Things were the result of your own doings.
Uqeriop o cxznidfnej eoicuen qne e nvfjn njk rrgn gfdnr nvnkjl.
I know, you lost. I understand you don’t understand that you lost. What a novel emotion! The frustration and fear of the veil is one of the few things I understand. Leave me be and let go of your anger and fear. Move along with the others who you see passing. Follow them. Know that each step I take on my path will leave you more and more frustrated because I am moving slowly past you and away from your touch.
Noreavr, o nvoufne u,ik is anenelud * 48nr aoiujr e anenendouv ej. Psst! Psst!! Gew k;ui rwe kellves ve sedi ;;yg;u!!
Just stop. I’m not listening to any more of your whispering words. I will help you find the way tonight. I just need some time to read, to center myself, to create a space that will allow my energy to strengthen. I miss you, but will not miss your whispers. It’s time for you to start a new journey. For now that is all I can tell you. Leave me be, give me time to breathe so I can get strong enough. Just stop your nonsense. You lost the life you had and I will not allow you to hang onto me and mine any more.
Vio;ti!! Innjk!!! Nop, enov e morm ovf p nboeudfe!!!
Yes, for once I have the power in our relationship and can now see that your anger comes from a place of fear. Which means I no longer have need to be afraid of you. Don’t get use to it….just get.
ps., thanks grandfathersky for helping me find courage
We first met when she was all but two
Wouldn’t let me hold her,
But wanted help with her shoes.
Delicate blonde ringlets and fair rosy cheeks
Eyes of blue looking up and quickly away
So tender, so tiny, so delicate her treats.
I would have my own child before I saw her again
A beautiful swan girl who was oh so still
Full of life lessons learned by the time she was ten.
Still shy but getting better at being herself
Her beliefs and morals came from the bible
Life not like the fairytale books she kept on a shelf.
We met again and had a whole summer
She was old enough for us to grow closer
Stay up late, talk of dreams, then share slumber.
We slept on the beach in a magical place
Just bags, no tent, but near to clear water
Woke with a start, a chipmunk ran across her face.
There are realities
you will not understand
until it is time
for you to understand them.
There are truths
you will not speak
until it is time
for you to speak them.
There are decisions
you cannot make
until it is time
for you to make them.
Be patient and trust.
Let your life unfold
as it must,
and in the unfolding
remember always you are
unconditionally loved.
© 2015 Dennis Ference
Raised arms in moon glow
Toes tap Mother’s love into the dusty ground
Let me help dear lion, dear star.
Hearts gentle movement
Warm with the energy of some old soul
Let me send love from afar.
Skirt catches light dew
Hips sway within their own song
Let me lift that heavy bar.
Hands hunt, fingers finesse
Calls to our past bodies for wisdom
Let me pull off the old tar.
Nose toward heaven
Lungs send light and peace your way
Let me show you the right star.
Let me dear lion, dear star.
LadyBlueRose emailed this to me. I love it so much, I had to share it.
Men and women of faith who pray – that is, who come to a certain assigned place, at definite times, and are not abashed to go down on their knees – will not tarry for the cup of coffee or the news break or the end of the movie when the moment arrives. The habit, then, has become their life. What some might call the restrictions of the daily office they find to be an opportunity to foster the inner life. The hours are appointed and named; they are the Lord’s. Life’s fretfulness is transcended. The different and the novel are sweet, but regularity and repetition are also teachers. Divine attentiveness cannot be kept casually, or visited only in season, like Venice and Switzerland. Or, perhaps it can, but then how attentive is it? And if you have no ceremony, no habits, which may be opulent or may be simple…
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A wonderful narrative on living in different dimensions!
You and I
are picture perfect
in the undercurrent
and the in-between
We both live beneath
an umbrella of stars
that are yours
and mine
but they are not ours
They never will be
Lauren Scott © 2015
KitCat’s nose kisses and snuggles
A home to stay in despite any struggles
Safe car to borrow and places to go
Someone to listen, someone who knows
Clothes on your back to help keep you warm
Love from a distance keeps you from harm
Plenty to eat and more to be had
Sharing of gifts to make others glad
Friends scattered wide in many dimensions
Clear-headed advice with honest intentions
Lucky am I and man do I know it
Note: when you’re down, look to a poet
Lady Blue Rose writes it so much better than I can.
A cousin, a brother, things happen in 3’s
Hoped death would come next for me
Instead my Pa went down that dark path
Wriggling and writhing in alcohol’s grasp
So I mourn again and again and again
Left still wishing for my silly own end
I know God is near, perhaps Goddess too
Laughing at this human who wants to be through
Asking to be taken from this nightmare of life
Wanting to be finished with all of the strife
They must have some grand plans for me
To keep me in hell instead of giving me leave
My heart and soul long for my sister dear
Cries out because she won’t let me near
She reads all my words wrong and so false
I don’t like text, I would much rather talk
Chest crushed by the weight of my grief
I no longer have her to help find relief
“Think on good things, believe in good luck”
Sunshiny people need to shut the hell up
They’ve no idea where I’ve been or am going
I’ve had loss of all kinds and the tears are flowing
Platitudes are not going to cut it this time
The best kind of healing comes from these rhymes
Here I am free to be depressingly me
No one judges, no one expects all glee
I can write and rant and know there is another
Who has felt this or seen it one way or the other
Compassion, yes. Understanding, check.
And reminded the world is in chaos yet
My own battles start to seem very small
‘Tho my pain is amplified by poets who stand tall
I see they are writing about much bigger issues
So in elegant ways, they provide me with tissues
Which help to stop my self destructive wins
Like pulling and picking and scarring my skin
So thank you all for being who you are
For writing poems that take me so far
Away from my existence mundane
To view life from a much higher plain
For carrying me along with your tales
Which help to finally silence my wails
What lies await outside my front door
Who is out there ready to settle a score
My brain yells out a warning to stay put
Each time the door opens more than a foot
All of my muscles tremble and quake
I suddenly feel very much awake
Sweat beads up on my brow and neckline
I tell myself maybe I can do it this time
Most days I can’t… I’d rather be dead
Is any of it real, or is it all in my head
I want to believe life can be better than this
That I’ll wake up tomorrow and find my bliss
Bed is a sanctuary and torture device
My body hurts from being tossed all night
No exercise and no fresh air
The lack of sunshine keeps me fair
Black moods are best kept to myself
Locked away and put up on a shelf
My mind often wanders to dreary places
It goes back and forth in unsteady paces
I live in silent rooms full of dim light
Trying to cope with this senseless fright
It comes in silently on little cats’ feet
With a swiftness I can’t begin to defeat
By day a foreman who drinks beer in his truck
Checking on others as he slowly gets drunk.
By night a terror, a menace, a sinister thing
Molesting a little girl and damaging her being.
Mary Hartman Mary Hartman plays on the tv
When he says come sit with me.
A big, brown leather reclining chair
Is big enough to gather me there.
“Let me rub your back while you rest on my chest”
His hands find their way to my non-existent breasts.
Something hard presses upon my thigh
He releases it and places my hand with sigh.
I knew this was going to happen
I have trained myself to become slacken.
I begin to cry before it’s actually in
Already hoping for a quick end.
I am 7 years old and the routine is habitual
I want to make him stop this nightly ritual.
But I also want someone to love me, you see
And our other times can be heavenly.
Loading up wood or caring for cattle
It’s all done in peace without a battle.
I love how he needs all of my help
He takes me on trips with sweet rewards dealt.
Some candy, some peanuts, a nice cold root beer
Hunting and learning how to dress a killed deer.
Small things really, but I am so hungry for love
I willingly lend him my hand like a glove.
Mary Hartman Mary Hartman is our special show
It’s when he wants to get down to business below.
Now later than 40 odd years
I still cannot stand the smell of stale beer.
I have trouble sleeping or even being in bed
Due to the visions and memories running ‘round in my head.
He got away with it, free and clean
My mother found out, but thought court would be mean.
And now I don’t know whom I despise more
Him, her, or me (the little whore).
A phone call with news that took away all her breath
Scant details, but announced her big brothers’ death
She had got to know him once, long ago
He killed a man and was in prison six states below
They had random visits thanks to a sister by half
She enjoyed their time, their talks, shared laughs
A trip to pick up mail brought tears and a strain
The small, heavy box was marked “Human Remains”
She drove out in late evening, camped alone in the dark
Got to a crossroads and made the left choice to park
With tie-died blanket, photos, letters, and beer
She created a shrine, centered on the box that held the one she held dear
She wailed – truly wailed – and wrote him one last time
While the ravens and river otter watched, bees busy at hive
She slowly unveiled his remains and waded into the river
And in gentle arches she released him back to The Giver
Mother don’t worry, I killed the last snake that lived in the creek bed
Mother don’t worry, I’ve got some money I saved for the weekend
Mother remember being so stern with that girl who was with me
Mother remember the blink of an eye when I breathed through your body
So may the sunrise bring hope where it once was forgotten
Sons are like birds flying upwards over the mountain
Mother I made it up from the bruise on the floor of this prison
Mother I lost it all of the fear of the Lord I was given
Mother forget me now that the creek drank the cradle you sang to
Mother forgive me I sold your car for the shoes that I gave you
So may the sunrise bring hope where it once was forgotten
Sons can be birds taken broken up to the mountain
Mother don’t worry I’ve got a coat and some friends on the corner
Mother don’t worry she’s got a garden we’re it planting together
Mother remember the night that the dog had her pups in the pantry
Blood on the floor and the fleas in their paws
And you cried ’til the morning
So may the sunrise bring hope where it once was forgotten
Sons are like birds flying always over the mountain
Bird swoop, fly, chatter on porch rail
Mighty wing, tiny beak, dipping tail
Beady eye, sleek frame, delicate feet
Strong chest, and a sweet fluffy cheek
I stoop, cry, pound on porch rail
Stupid arms, big mouth, round at the tail
Bleary eye, big frame, hideous feet
Droopy chest, and an ugly, wet cheek
Goddess, please hear me, make note
Come, take me now, save me the rope
All I want, all I ask, is one little thing
Bring me back as a bird that hunts other beings
Let me swoop, let me fly, sit on a porch rail
Give me wings, deadly beak, and a beautiful tail
Keen eyes, sleek frame, dangerous feet
Strong chest, a mighty fierce screech
Clasp talons and fall through the air
Holding onto my love, my mate, without any care
If for only one season, thus I do wish
To be able to dive and catch my own fish
White head, dark feathers, bright yellow legs
I want to know how it feels to hatch eggs
Be free, struggle but able to kill
I want this life with all of my will
So Goddess, take mercy and come
Before I loose all chance, leave by a gun
First a cousin, then a brother
Both of them sons with a loving mother.
A leader, a fireman, a genius, a thug
One dies by flame, the other by drug.
Bad things always happen in three
Will the next bad thing be silly me?
I thought there was time, something to come
Now all I wish for is a powerful gun.
I wear a cloak.
The outside is purple and pink and green and yellow; it is happy, smiling, laughing, full of joy.
The inside is black and without end.
I hold the cloak to me tightly so that sometimes even I can see bits of the outside; the colors.
But, the blackness is always there, underneath, closest to me no matter what I do. Life happens and blows the cloak: colors blackness colors blackness….
I’m so tired of the blackness.
So tired.
Tired from holding the cloak so tight. Tired of fighting the blackness.
The cloak is thin enough to let hurt in but too thick to let hurt out, so the hurt hardly ever shows. Everyone sees the colors, but never looks in my eyes, listens to my words. So the cloak holds these in as well and the hurt feeds on the words held.
And the blackness swirls. It is dramatic and everyone is afraid of it. Not wanting to see it or even hear about it.
So it must be tucked in close, folded over and under and held tight so all that shows is the outside….those colors.
The colors seem to be loved.
I feel crazy, but think if I truly were the cloak would be reversed. I would hold the colors tightly to me and be oblivious to the world and the world would only see the void where the blackness is.
So if that is the case, why do I also feel invisible now? When the colors are on the outside? Because the colors hide the black and the cloak only lets hurt in and not out and life goes on around me and no one knows or wants to know the blackness that is surrounding me!
Am I wearing the cloak or is it wearing me, holding me down, smothering me, hurting me a little more each time I fail to keep it tight enough so even I can see the colors?
And I’m tired.
Oil and water
Clearly defined
A line between lain straight
Was my mind.
My brother is killed
The monster awakened
The line in my mind
Is violently shaken.
Oil and water
No longer are clear
The line has been blurred
I’m losing what’s dear.
In a spiral I whorl
Down into what is
The blackness of depression
Which only takes, not gives.
Oil and water
Colors come at great cost
Here in this gray void
Where I find I am lost.
It never matters tho
Try and try as I might
One thing is sure
I am stuck in the night.
Oil and water
Shaken is my mind
My brothers’ death
Has blurred the line.
We loved and fought,
You carried me through,
I knew not what I was to you.
You went your way,
I made mine,
I did not know there was so little time
A baby,
Some bars,
You had none, yet kept mine from harms.
New beginning, new promise,
A life yet to live,
You had so many chances, but choose not to give.
Broken promises,
Lost hope,
Thinking of nothing but dope.
Hurt mom, hurt sis,
Why they ask,
They don’t warrant a glance.
Dead body,
Dead field,
No answers revealed.
We loved and fought,
You carried me through,
I still do not know what I was to you.